Friday, March 28, 2008


The Walk Out got press!!!
(Links go directory to the story)

Asbury Park Press
Courier News
The Star Ledger (click new photos under the main photo). We are also on the front page of the Local (ie Middlesex) page in the print version) The above photo was from this paper.
Home News Tribune
Michael Moore's website (I'm off to the side on the front page)
Daily Targum
There was also press from not print sources such as

and MTV2 among others.

More pictures are available here and here

Thanks to the WalkOut C
oalition and to everyone whowalked out or joined up!

Thursday, March 27, 2008


Even if you don't have class, even you aren't a Rutgers Student, even if you aren't a student. Walk out of your daily life in protest of the Illegal Occupation of Iraq and Rutgers Complicity in the War.

Monday, March 24, 2008


I feel like the the next few months will be bringing a lot of changes.

For the first time in my life I'm sick of school - which I guess makes sense since I started pre-school when I was three and haven't taken a break. I'm so bored in my classes and I'm becoming "one of those" students. After I graduate, I don't know what I'll do... I'm seriously considering buying a one way ticket to Heathrow (airport) and working (doing whatever) until I can afford to come back. We'll see.

But really, I don't have much of a direction. Which I guess is okay, but I used to be the one person who had their entire life planned out. Up until a few months ago I had my life planned out quite literally until I retired... which I know is strange for someone 22... especially someone as disorganized as I am. But God made some things uncharacteristically clear, and well, I have no idea.

Two of my mentors will be leaving the area soon - both moving to an island in Virginia. I didn't realise how much I would miss them until Holy Week. Last week I went to church 9 times in 8 days.. but unlike most people who do that, I don't get paid. But I love Holy Week, it reminds me of why I became a Christian... and I love how my parish does Holy Week... I've been to other parishes for it, but none were like GraSP. This summer the rector (who baptized me) is leaving, the associate (who has been second mother to me, in so many ways beyond being a priest) is leaving, and the deacon is taking a leave of absence (baby twins!) - and likely, I'll be leaving, and that scares me too.

I won't be leaving until December, maybe to the UK as I mentioned above, maybe to where ever I can get the best paying job in the US. But I feel so unsettled - so unmotivated, so incapable of doing anything. I knew I was feeling down, but it wasn't until I realised how comfortable I felt on Good Friday and how much I had to strain to be joyful at the resurrection that I realised how far I was. How happy I was that Christ died for my sins because of just how wretched a sinner I am, but how hard it was, is for me to be joyful that he rose from the dead. That I was hiding behind a faith that I'm not sure I like. But I know that I love.

I don't know why I'm telling this to a bunch of strangers, maybe I just don't care what people think of me, maybe I just don't feel like finding a notebook. Maybe after going to counseling services on campus and having them tell me they couldn't fit me in anytime soon, but if I felt I really needed something they could send me off site to a place I would have pay for students to treat, me made me realise that none of us really do matter. I mean, seriously, with what I was going in with.. and then told that basically I'm getting rejected by the therapist... that's well, let's not go there, I'm not getting that open in a blog entry... but we are really lucky that Christ died for our sins because we all have so many of them that we would be beyond screwed.

I've been snapping at everyone lately, and I know I should be grateful for so much - a comfortable life, loving parents, random savings bonds we forgot my grandmother left before she died that will pay for half of my MLIS.... so I off balanced, unsettled and can recognise how irrational I'm acting and sounding. I've just been so tired lately, so exhausted, like no amount of sleep will make me feel awake.

Last Tuesday I preached that with all the suffering in the world it can seem foolish that God can be loving and benevolent. On Friday my rector preached this in response. That where there is suffering, there is Christ on the cross. And while it makes sense, it doesn't make me feel better.

I guess this is one of those blog entries where I come across as an angsty teenager. I'm usually the one who listens to all my friends when they go all mental.. I'm not supposed to be the emo one.

I'm tired of being responsible, I'm tired of working, I'm tired of trying, I'm tired of fighting, I'm just tired, and I want it to go away.


Head over to Eileen the Episcopalifem to congratulate her on her good news!

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Alleluia, Christus Resurrexit!

Vere Resurrexit, Alleluia!

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Meditation from Tuesday in Holy Week

Meditation from Tuesday in Holy Week posted here:

Friday, March 14, 2008

Greetings from Boston

Hey everyone!
So I'm hanging at my friend Katie's apt in Boston with Jacky. Today's been fun. Took six hours to get here from Jersey. Hung out at Harvard Div waiting for Katie to be done with class, showed Jacky around, went to Bertucci's for dinner, then left them to go to the Society of St. John the Evangelist for evening prayer.

that was freaking awesome. I had only been there once before, for noonday prayers, but it was a great experience... one of the few times I ever manage to calm down. It's also great to be among my own - Red Sox fans.

Now we are hanging out, watching movies and eating ice cream.

If anyone is in the area and wants to hang out, give me a call.

UPDATE: Had a great time! Left the country for the first time, and my best friend might be mad at me, but I'm not sure.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Extra.. Extra.. Read all about it!!! Its a miracle....

We managed to have a diocesan convention that didn't make the headlines... but we DID do some cool stuff.

1. College chaplaincies now have seat, voice, and vote. This is awesome as many of our members do not have parishes outside of the chaplaincies.

2. We elected two alternates under the age of 25 who will be attending convention. IMO we were not elected just because of our ages.

3. A resolution was passed against the violence in Darfur. The resolution called for the forming of a committee to raise awareness and look into what we can do.

4. We had the opportunity to hear about some of the fabulous things being done in our diocese, the national church, and the Anglican Communion.

Its amazing what can be done when the convention is not spent debating human sexuality.

Monday, March 3, 2008


I find it amusing that I can't manage to get elected to vestry (or anything else) at my parish when its contested, yet I can get elected L6 to General Convention (we send 6).

Regardless YAY I'm going to GC09 in Anaheim and more to the point have actually gotten elected to something-- WAHOOO!!!!!

Actually, I love my diocese. L5 is a student at the same school I attend and is actually two years younger.

Paul (a) is L7, but he'll be there too :-D

See y'all in Anaheim